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Friday, November 30, 2007
I think, in life, the epitome of pain one can ever feel is from the losing of a beloved one. The demise of a close one, and the pain that lingers on after his death, is incomprehensible. As quoted, "the deaths are senseless". It left us all in shock, in pain, and in grieve.
I can never imagine, even in my wildest nightmare, that i would be experiencing this pain, at least not so soon.
It still hurts so much, so much..
It has been a week since Weizheng passed away. My cofident, my buddy, my best friend. Gone, without a word, just like that.
This entry is dedicated to Weizheng, the man who i look up upon to, the man who had so much vigour and passion for life.
(how i wish i wouldn't have to type in past tense..)
Weizheng, the bespectacled guy whom we first met after 1st 3 mths in SAJC. We were in the same class, and he looked like any other hard core mugger choinging to dominate the papers coming his way. 04S75, lectures after lectures, tutorials after tutorials, days after days. We grew closer and closer, we bonded. Countless outings together, all the silly stuff we did after school, all the name callings and scandal fixings. We were like brothers. His campaign to get into the student council in J1, putting up posters with taglines 'Water Closet (wc was his initial) - always here for you'. How we used to tease him about this cheesy tagline. In J2, he became our class rep. Leadership was inborn in him. He was the leader among us, getting things done, gathering the class and making sure we stayed together as a class. He was instrumental in the bonding of s75, and in everything he did for the class, he put in his best effort, for us.
The mugging period in J2 for the A's. We mug hard together, in our Reading Room, with the usual people huddling close together discussing questions. He never failed to motivate and inspire us whenever depression sets in. He was super smart, hardworking and self motivated. Without doubt, he was one of the very few people in s75 who had such fantastic results. He worked hard for what he believed in.
He joined sailing initally in SA, den moved on to Volleyball, where he was an active member in the School Team. He joined the Green Club too and contributed significantly to the Club. He joined the OCIP team to udon thani as well. So active was he, he seemed infallible.
We got posted to the same company (Leopard) in Tekong for BMT. We were in the same platoon, but different sections. He was made the section IC for his section. Again, his leadership abilities separated him from all the cocksters. We see each other everyday, did training together, kena tekan together. We met up everytime before booking in to take the train together, and during the long train ride from the west to the east, we would talk about so much stuff. However, we got posted to different vocations after BMT. He became a technician.
He always had a drive for sports. With the many swimming sessions we had together, he told me that he would be attached out to the SAFSA Dragonboat Team. I was proud of him. It wasn't easy to make it into SAFSA, and the training they did was xiong. After a period, he became the Vice Captain of the team. Another acheivement. Not long after, he told me he made it into the national team. What a glory! He went Malaysia, Macau with the national team to race. Just 2 weeks ago, he informed us he would be going to Cambodia. And now..
How drastically life can change, in such a short period. How cruel fate can be.
Weizheng, the pillar and strength of s75, the funnyman of the guys, and the leader among us. What would we do now, now that you are not with us, now that you can't be here for us.. S75 will never be the same again.
I have never cried till so jialat for a long time already. This whole week had been the worst week ever, ever.
However, it is heartening to know that he is now in a better place. He died for the country, doing the sports he loved. He was a man who did not hesitate to do the things he believed in, he had no regrets.
Anyway, a number of people i wanna thank so so much who have been here for me, for us during this period:
Entire S75(includes the teachers): wouldnt know what to do without u guys. LX, ZW, XH: The presence of you ppl always seem so comforting. Thanks for the hugs, the support and the many words which help me feel better. Siyin: Thanks for coming down that day, talking to me, and your sms-es. Pls organise 2/2 outing soon ok. Xueyin: Your talks on msn, many thanks. I will be strong. BMT buddies: Seeing u guys reminded me of the good times all of us share in tekong. Thx for all ur support. And the many many ppl who consoled me and us during this time. Appreciate it.
Weizheng, you are in our hearts, for eternity. When all of us grow old, have kids and grandchildren, we will tell them of the many many wonderful memories all of us shared. We will tell them your story, your drive for life, and your smile.
Your smile, weizheng, your laughter, weizheng, your voice. In my heart, your everything.
Rest in peace, brudder. Everything has been taken care of.